Drunk Much

I think he's mad. Just kidding; i know he is! I sent him the papers for custody court over his son. I would call this an over reaction at best. HE has legal custody of his son, if he gave a shit this would be playing out different. However, it's more fun to say your … Continue reading Drunk Much

Never AgainĀ 

šŸ˜³ OMG. They DO all go to the same class!! I saw this guy TWICE. I asked him a question he didn't like and he went off on me. I recognized too many words from a script I've been in before. I left him alone per his request. True to narsisstic form; they want you … Continue reading Never AgainĀ 

The Game Changed

So I'm at the tail end of a new game. Once again, one I was too stupid to realize I was playing. He figured out the old game wasn't going to work. That he was indeed not coming back here. So he completely changed the game and tactic. He continues to take advantage in every … Continue reading The Game Changed

Nothing New To See Here

He won't bother to make a plan to see his children. I ask him, too much in fact. Oh, he's just been busy.....working his ass off. He's gonna have a phone and car in the morning. And "his own" place in six days! Yes, I made the shitty comment "you wanted to see your kids … Continue reading Nothing New To See Here

The Blame Game

When you realize YOU just became the back up plan. Discarding ME meant discarding his children. The ones that "he misses so much". And he got a job, but I refuse to believe from sun up to sun down he's there every single day. Anyway, he was supposed to watch the kids tomorrow so I … Continue reading The Blame Game

Honor Thy Father?

This is the shortened conversation I had with him regarding his son. Me-you need to talk to his mother. Him-I have nothing to say to that bitch. Me-you actually have to come up with some kind of parenting agreement. Him-tough shit, you handle since you think you know what's best for everyone. Me-YOU are his … Continue reading Honor Thy Father?

Glad That’s Over

I had one of those show stopping panic attacks at work today. Blood pressure, heart rate high, I just went to an empty room and sat there awhile. My dr gave me medicine specifically for those attacks, but I can't take it at work. A co-worker came and just sat with me for a little … Continue reading Glad That’s Over

“His World” I Just Live In It

I get to spend another weekend with this man. He's a controlling jerk. He can go WEEKS without even asking about his kids, and now he's wanting to stay with them every weekend because that's what he should be doing. He is full of shit. I love how this works; You haven't even bothered to … Continue reading “His World” I Just Live In It

Just Listen!

Just listen to what I try to say. I can't put into words what it is that I've gone through or continue to go through with him. I'm tired of the typical garden variety answers and "suggestions". Everything you say to me is truly "NO SHIT!!" in my head. That doesn't change what is the … Continue reading Just Listen!

Panic Attack #3

He was at the house this weekend watching two of the kids so I could go to work. I don't like it and I don't feel comfortable, but I have few choices. I came home after 12 hours of work and all I wanted was my routine. But it was all thrown off; he was … Continue reading Panic Attack #3

The Voice

There's a certain tone he gets sometimes. It's calm and rational. It's a mix of concern and sad. It's a higher pitch than normal. It's sweet and caring. It's attentive and always asking what's wrong or can I get you anything. It's a different voice than the one that he has almost everyday. From the … Continue reading The Voice

Save Me

I gave the devil my hand and now he's dragging me back to hell. Only now I know what hell looks like and I don't want to go.

The Day Shit Got Real

August 23, 2015 Sunday Woke up at 3 am to him moving the baby into her bed in the next room. I didn't pay any attention until I heard her crying. I got up and asked what he was doing. He stated he wasn't having her in the bed anymore, HE was sleeping in the … Continue reading The Day Shit Got Real

Panic Attack #2

How many will I have to have before I can no longer number them? I don't want to find out. So #2, it was through text, he made a comment about spanking me. Yes, it was in a sexual connotation. No, I really didn't give a shit. Until I realized he was dead serious. And … Continue reading Panic Attack #2

See How That Happened?Ā 

August 24, 2015 Monday He said he was going to get an apartment today and he had an appt at 2pm. He also stated that his ex had texted him and wanted to come see their son before leaving the city. He told her fine and wanted to know what time she was coming. He … Continue reading See How That Happened?Ā 

If Only Willpower Was Sold At Target

Why are they impossible to let go of? It's been two months since he left (because I initiated the separation) and yet I'm still getting used and manipulated. I'm still crying when I should be better. But everytime I feel better, it's like he just knows it and fucks it up for me. They are … Continue reading If Only Willpower Was Sold At Target

Sociopath ability to twist words, manipulate and deflect situations

Found at Dating A Sociopath……but it doesn’t really matter how many articles you read, stories you hear, things you witness….For those on the outside its simply too outlandish to be true and more than likely will never understand. For those on the inside its not describable, we know it sounds crazy, we’ve been convinced we’re crazy and some of us even act crazy because it’s too outlandish to be true.

Dating a Sociopath

The sociopath uses a number of tools to manipulate. The sociopath uses a number of tools to manipulate.

If you spend too long around the sociopath, once Mr nice, and Mr Helpful, and Mr Wonderful wears off, once he has his slippers firmly under your table, hand in the fridge, and the warm half of your bed, a totally different character begins to appear. To cope with this, you need mental agility,for the sociopath is the master game player. And what he intends to do is play a game with your life. You will be left feeling absolutely confused.

What is deflection? Deflection takes focus away from the accusation. To use an example, if you had concerns that your partner was cheating, perhaps you have evidence that has convinced you that he is having an affair? You Ā confront your partner, holding the evidence, you are fairly sure that now you ā€˜have him?ā€™ā€¦ Or so you think!!

Evidence, means littleā€¦

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This Cycle In Action

Want to see how this cycle of madness works? This is the story; he's hoping to get into this home where he simply can't drink and they do intensive outpatient therapy. He'll let me know when he knows. What if it's true? What if he goes somewhere and gets "help"?.....(hold on, didn't we do this … Continue reading This Cycle In Action

Fly-By-Night

Everytime I think I'm "ok" he swoops through to make sure I'm not. He was nearby up until a few days ago. I didn't know he was running off AGAIN. He won't tell me where he is because he "doesn't trust me". Haha!! Really? He trusted me just fine when he "conned" me into going … Continue reading Fly-By-Night

Just Another Dumb Game

He's been very elusive the last several days. He's "got a plan" to "fix his shit". Ok, what "shit" might he be referring to? And what's this plan? Oh, he doesn't want to tell me because if it doesn't work out, he doesn't want to be called a liar yet again. Hey Einstein!!........I wouldn't call … Continue reading Just Another Dumb Game