Reflections of the Day

     I am weeks away from hitting that moment one year ago where he left in a blaze of glory. Why am I still on this fucking roller coaster? Why am I ok for weeks, long enough to think I’m ok, just to go all the back to square one? 

     I’m not ok. My children are not ok. And you know what sucks?!? Getting help for them NOW is just as hard as getting help for all of us was back then. WHY? 

     I also find out this week when exactly we go back to court. Four addresses and a month of newspaper ads just to get this sorry son of a bitch served. He dodged it for a year. Amazing. I looked at his Facebook page today……yeah, I know. Don’t do that. I’ll give you three guesses on the number of photos he has of his children or even any indication he ever had a life in this place………ZERO. 

      Yes, he looks happy with his new victim. But he also looks drunk and high. Some things never change. By the way, that is the same supply that messaged me a few months back. Just another human that sold her soul to the devil. 

One thought on “Reflections of the Day

  1. I know what it feels like to feel as though you’re making progress only to realize the very next day…not so much. I can’t even look at my husband Facebook page because he doesn’t have one. But trolling Facebook pages of his family there it was a click on a woman’s page that commented about how “all the men in the family were so good looking” (“just wait until he takes that mask off & she sees his evil soul”) and lo and behold there’s my husband. She and him are living together and I know more about him then he thinks I do. He would just die if he knew I knew. He ghosted me, yes he just disappeared. I had no clue of where he was until that click,,, now I know more about him and his new love then he would ever imagine. However I have not been back to her page because I can’t look at them living large and I’m struggling. It also cause triggers. He stole all the money, he left me with nothing, not even food. So until I can dig myself out of this hole and save some money to take him to court and divorce him there’s not much else I can do. I don’t want him to know that I know because I don’t want to make her take down the page.
    We, will get through this, we have no other choice. Its just devastating that after 32 years I have to start over with nothing.
    I’m sorry to hear that your kids are suffering. Its amazing how they walk away and start new lives and don’t care about their children. I pray that God blesses you & keeps you and your family safe.❤❤

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